Mijanou ter Braak

I feel like...you ruined my life...again

I feel bad & you...you feel... just ...fine

For you I was something that gave you pleasure

My pain...gave you pleasure

My nightmares turn you on

It was brief for you, just an hour of pleasure

For me it was longlasting

When I drive, I think about you

When I sleep, I dream about you

I keep remembering that feeling

When you were having pleasure while I was having pain

I keep remembering the humiliation

Of you not giving a shit about my pain

Of you feeling good, hearing me beg you to stop

Of you trying to look like a nice guy, after you stopped

I trusted you, and because of that, I was blind to see

The disgusting truth of the real you

The sadist no one knows

Without guild, remorse or empathy

Your second personality

The feeling of sadness and anger is all that remains now

Making me...remember you

The one I would really like to forget